strength and guidance

Well this is just a sad day. A day that started with an unbelievable shock. The shock that would make you wish the person who sent the message to you joking. Kuya and the rest of my Mother-side-family wanted to sleep so badly but can't. It was such a devastation that top even the most gruesome 47-people-massacred in Maguindanao. It was so much worse for us because of the shock and the inimaginable truth.

I can't pray for anything but the wellness and guidance for the people who loved him the most. Specially his son and wife and of course, his brother who spoiled and loved him so much far more than any other brother's love could've given. The brother who is in a worse condition for he cannot do anything, even bid farewell personally, and it is such a painful experience. Please Please May God give them all the gift of strength and acceptance...

Day 1

I'm now here in the office waiting for my lunch break to end. My eyes is tired already calling the pillows and the sound sleep. My Day 1 yesterday was so boring and so sleepy due to numerous orientation from different departments such as HR, Facilities and ours, CS focusing on the training and the company policies. It's a good thing that Philippines is the holiday capital so as to feed my Shikamaruness.

During the 'tell me about yourself' stuff, I can't think of anything anymore because of my lack of sleep and most probably because of Naruto Shippuuden was playing all over my mind. I said useless stuffs. Shikamaru Shikamaru Shikamaru.. puro ganto ung nasa utak ko,that's why pati ako nahahawa na ng katamaran ni Shikamaru, as if I'm not by myself. Haaay

I wore mascara yesterday which was a good thing cause I cried hearing lonely/senti songs (in the bus and jeep). I found out that Mr. Soya was on night shift on the only month that we will be working on the same area. That, somehow, depresses me.. and then flashbacks.. realizations.. haaay There's only one word on my mind... 'bakit??' My mind tells me that I should be happy.. But maybe this was the part where they say heart and mind actually do disagree..

I can't even sleep on my bed so as not to feel the solitude.