Tomorrow will be my graduation. Up until today, IT hasn't sank yet. Maybe hindi pa ngayon. Even the accomplishment of all my job well dones are not felt yet. Maybe if I saw my profs, tomorrow, it will finally occur to me. Or maybe when I see my friends onstage.
This excitement and joy that Tayong Dalawa brought me tonight made me forget temporarily that there was a long-due feeling and emotion that must be dealt with immediately... Maybe it is indeed God's plan. Maybe I should just trust him. :)
I can't think of anything more to say but the biggest THANKS!
Friday, July 17, 2009
Update from my manual
And so I'm having this 'manual' blog that I update ragularly. Basically the reason why I don' t dig in too much lately on this quite nega-sided blog.
However to sum much of the things up (since I really like typing in my kuya's laptop) here are the stuffs/thoughts that kept me busy lately:
MJ's untimely death. I seriously grieved, and although as much as I hate it, I still watch Entertainment Tonight to know the latest development so far: in his death case, dilemma, child custody, family, scandals and all. I cried heavily during his funeral together with the other billions around the world. I swore that I loved him and that I'll always be a fan whom he has a place in my heart. (Does that sound anymore correct?)
Next, I'm going uber crazy about my Ramon Lecumberi! Lalo na ung mga episodes na he's so sweet to lola Gets! At cyempre lalong tumaas ang level when I saw him in person!!! Gosh! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaah In fact, two weekends in-a-row na pala nya akong pinapakilig and talaganamang effective na effective. I so love the writers of the soap, they must have known that Ramon has superb acting skills way way more than the bidas! Haaaay... Please continue to amaze me.
Hmm I've been skipping some tests and interviews lately. Maybe because I have my eyes on You-net, HP, P&G (which I doubted because Kuya's in JnJ) and maybe I'll try accenture :) hay.. So far, I'll enjoy the liberty of being at home and celebreating the end of my biggest problem yet.
Speaking, now it has been passed more terribly to her. I don't feel in any way happy with what she's going through right now. I just hoped that she'll realize that I'm not her enemy, and I tried my very best to reach out to her but she closed her doors on me. God knows my efforts and all that trials and depression I've been through. I hope I'll see her tomorrow and that I could congratulate her with no slight of guilt in my head and in my heart. I feel sorry for her, I really really do... But at this point, it is my turn to not get involved. She wished to deal with this on her own, now it is granted.
See.. numega na naman ako.. aargh.. But I love typing in this laptop. No wonder, people who owns their laptops are the best and most updated bloggers around. haaay HP give me my own!!!
Tomorrow's my graduation.. I find it impossible to sleep dahil sa exciting events sa Tayong Dalawa! I invited a few friends, whether they come or not, my weekend will not be ruined, thanks again to Ramon Lecumberi! :)
However to sum much of the things up (since I really like typing in my kuya's laptop) here are the stuffs/thoughts that kept me busy lately:
MJ's untimely death. I seriously grieved, and although as much as I hate it, I still watch Entertainment Tonight to know the latest development so far: in his death case, dilemma, child custody, family, scandals and all. I cried heavily during his funeral together with the other billions around the world. I swore that I loved him and that I'll always be a fan whom he has a place in my heart. (Does that sound anymore correct?)
Next, I'm going uber crazy about my Ramon Lecumberi! Lalo na ung mga episodes na he's so sweet to lola Gets! At cyempre lalong tumaas ang level when I saw him in person!!! Gosh! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaah In fact, two weekends in-a-row na pala nya akong pinapakilig and talaganamang effective na effective. I so love the writers of the soap, they must have known that Ramon has superb acting skills way way more than the bidas! Haaaay... Please continue to amaze me.
Hmm I've been skipping some tests and interviews lately. Maybe because I have my eyes on You-net, HP, P&G (which I doubted because Kuya's in JnJ) and maybe I'll try accenture :) hay.. So far, I'll enjoy the liberty of being at home and celebreating the end of my biggest problem yet.
Speaking, now it has been passed more terribly to her. I don't feel in any way happy with what she's going through right now. I just hoped that she'll realize that I'm not her enemy, and I tried my very best to reach out to her but she closed her doors on me. God knows my efforts and all that trials and depression I've been through. I hope I'll see her tomorrow and that I could congratulate her with no slight of guilt in my head and in my heart. I feel sorry for her, I really really do... But at this point, it is my turn to not get involved. She wished to deal with this on her own, now it is granted.
See.. numega na naman ako.. aargh.. But I love typing in this laptop. No wonder, people who owns their laptops are the best and most updated bloggers around. haaay HP give me my own!!!
Tomorrow's my graduation.. I find it impossible to sleep dahil sa exciting events sa Tayong Dalawa! I invited a few friends, whether they come or not, my weekend will not be ruined, thanks again to Ramon Lecumberi! :)
Monday, June 15, 2009
in crossroad
In crossroads.
Still I have this big debt. Pussy, my supposed-to-be source of money experienced something unfortunate today that she can't give me the money.. Now I'm in trouble. My brother, with his bitter and angry sentiments about money has been bugging me. I should have asked for 6k instead of 2k. Now, I'm in trouble. I asked another close friend but then he has to asked if his parents will allow him to lend me, and it sucks.. I mean, I don't want to cause trouble to anybody specially ofcourse to him..I'm the one who needs money and if he's gonna be in trouble or at least get himself caught in between then I guess not worth it.. Haaay
Got a good interview although its totally wrong for me to react to the whole lecture with a selfish word such as "exhausting!".. Gosh I was soooo damn wrong about that. I hope 'she' didn't note that (which is totally impossible). Another thing when she asked me to described myself in one word, I should've said what my preliminary interviewer told us: "Ambitious".. Instead I answered driven.. Hay I forgot about that dahil linakad ko ang buong ayala!!!!
Now I'm in crossroads between waiting for my since-college dream company and this emerging nothing-at-all-to-do-with-my-course-but-has-spectacular-benefits-including-travel-and-management company.. Aaaargh what should I do? The second is a dream job for anyone in the country. The benefits and career growth is very promising but sales and marketinG????? However my dream company has very little career growth, what I'll be doing is perfect for my course but the ambition of becoming a manager will remain in my dreams... I'm not as confident as my colleagues with regards to programming etc..
But then, in both companies, I'm subjected to intensive training...
Whatever training I will be enrolled in, I know, sure fire, I will excell...
Still at crossroads... advice please!
words to ponder:
a.Rest and relaxation; travel opportunities; management trainee; makati; benefits; PAYCHECK; partner; 800k; immediate hiring!
b.Computer; how things work; DREAM company; mr. soya; techy; queen of circle; fun fun; pressure; makati;
Words to curse:
a. sales and marketing!; promo girl?; rejection; degrading!!; eewness
b. programming hell; no career growth; stuck; geeky?; no fashion hallway
Still I have this big debt. Pussy, my supposed-to-be source of money experienced something unfortunate today that she can't give me the money.. Now I'm in trouble. My brother, with his bitter and angry sentiments about money has been bugging me. I should have asked for 6k instead of 2k. Now, I'm in trouble. I asked another close friend but then he has to asked if his parents will allow him to lend me, and it sucks.. I mean, I don't want to cause trouble to anybody specially ofcourse to him..I'm the one who needs money and if he's gonna be in trouble or at least get himself caught in between then I guess not worth it.. Haaay
Got a good interview although its totally wrong for me to react to the whole lecture with a selfish word such as "exhausting!".. Gosh I was soooo damn wrong about that. I hope 'she' didn't note that (which is totally impossible). Another thing when she asked me to described myself in one word, I should've said what my preliminary interviewer told us: "Ambitious".. Instead I answered driven.. Hay I forgot about that dahil linakad ko ang buong ayala!!!!
Now I'm in crossroads between waiting for my since-college dream company and this emerging nothing-at-all-to-do-with-my-course-but-has-spectacular-benefits-including-travel-and-management company.. Aaaargh what should I do? The second is a dream job for anyone in the country. The benefits and career growth is very promising but sales and marketinG????? However my dream company has very little career growth, what I'll be doing is perfect for my course but the ambition of becoming a manager will remain in my dreams... I'm not as confident as my colleagues with regards to programming etc..
But then, in both companies, I'm subjected to intensive training...
Whatever training I will be enrolled in, I know, sure fire, I will excell...
Still at crossroads... advice please!
words to ponder:
a.Rest and relaxation; travel opportunities; management trainee; makati; benefits; PAYCHECK; partner; 800k; immediate hiring!
b.Computer; how things work; DREAM company; mr. soya; techy; queen of circle; fun fun; pressure; makati;
Words to curse:
a. sales and marketing!; promo girl?; rejection; degrading!!; eewness
b. programming hell; no career growth; stuck; geeky?; no fashion hallway
Thursday, June 4, 2009
late june 4 post
Shocked stat on facebook.
I was schocked. Can't believe this is happening. I knew it, may nagdidiin sakin. Haay can I blame him? As Kramer in Seinfeild says "Which is easier, feel sorry or blame you?? BLAME YOU!" More like moving forward or blame you..
I was schocked. Can't believe this is happening. I knew it, may nagdidiin sakin. Haay can I blame him? As Kramer in Seinfeild says "Which is easier, feel sorry or blame you?? BLAME YOU!" More like moving forward or blame you..
June 4
It's 2:25AM... my eyes hurts yet I'm still in front of the screen...
The weather has been cold lately due to frequent rains.. My 'feminine' mood is on strike and I realized the virtue of patience.. The 'Jerome HP' patience!
'Set Print Area'.. How does an employed printer, who's responsibility is to print documents doesn't know that!! I mean how competent is he?!! Gosh! That place is pathetic, and I guess nothing's different from the surrounding shops..
Lost about 40 pesos in tongits and another 15 pesos goes into my stomach! Cream-O choco is just so gooood! yummmy.
I need a therapy regarding my depression.. Is this a thought that I should even consider when almost all my so called friends answered 'depression' in my facebook quiz account?? Even Mr. Soya thinks so. Didn't they know that I'm a highly optimist person?! That I'm not a quitter BUT a fighter?! 'Lucky-charm' thinks so too.. She knows when I academically struggle but despite of all the visible drama and pressure I know and I certainly believe that I can do it.. That I'm a born fighter and will not stop at anything. Love you 'lucky charm!!' But Mr. Soya? Well.. In fairness to him, he does always hear me in distress.. What can I do, he's my output whenever I feel that life is unfair and full of sh*ts. Maybe I should start telling him the other side, the fighter powder girl! haha Share more of the good stuff..
I want to be like Alan Shore!.. The one who always wins in unconventional cases... :p Officially love Boston Legal!!
"Denny Crane, the sound of my name fascinates me.".. XD
Maybe after all this mess.. Once I finally get through it and hopefully be a good sheperd after all.. I want to forget 'this' ever happened between us.. The last memory that I would cherish the most would be the time we shop for tents and got lost a lot of times.. That's a happy one.. We got lost, we window-shopped through a lot of Chinese stores.. DVD hunts.. Ukay-ukay agawan.. lots of pictures even.. Radish Salad.. Dinner.. "Di parin ako makapaniwala nakabili tayo nito!!!!!!" haaaaay after all this.. maybe.. Well I hope.. You're my buddy system, my Friend.. not just an EVP... :) I still hope all is well... :)
The weather has been cold lately due to frequent rains.. My 'feminine' mood is on strike and I realized the virtue of patience.. The 'Jerome HP' patience!
'Set Print Area'.. How does an employed printer, who's responsibility is to print documents doesn't know that!! I mean how competent is he?!! Gosh! That place is pathetic, and I guess nothing's different from the surrounding shops..
Lost about 40 pesos in tongits and another 15 pesos goes into my stomach! Cream-O choco is just so gooood! yummmy.
I need a therapy regarding my depression.. Is this a thought that I should even consider when almost all my so called friends answered 'depression' in my facebook quiz account?? Even Mr. Soya thinks so. Didn't they know that I'm a highly optimist person?! That I'm not a quitter BUT a fighter?! 'Lucky-charm' thinks so too.. She knows when I academically struggle but despite of all the visible drama and pressure I know and I certainly believe that I can do it.. That I'm a born fighter and will not stop at anything. Love you 'lucky charm!!' But Mr. Soya? Well.. In fairness to him, he does always hear me in distress.. What can I do, he's my output whenever I feel that life is unfair and full of sh*ts. Maybe I should start telling him the other side, the fighter powder girl! haha Share more of the good stuff..
I want to be like Alan Shore!.. The one who always wins in unconventional cases... :p Officially love Boston Legal!!
"Denny Crane, the sound of my name fascinates me.".. XD
Maybe after all this mess.. Once I finally get through it and hopefully be a good sheperd after all.. I want to forget 'this' ever happened between us.. The last memory that I would cherish the most would be the time we shop for tents and got lost a lot of times.. That's a happy one.. We got lost, we window-shopped through a lot of Chinese stores.. DVD hunts.. Ukay-ukay agawan.. lots of pictures even.. Radish Salad.. Dinner.. "Di parin ako makapaniwala nakabili tayo nito!!!!!!" haaaaay after all this.. maybe.. Well I hope.. You're my buddy system, my Friend.. not just an EVP... :) I still hope all is well... :)
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Me, I'll take it literally.
I just found an interesting blog.. He further excites my interest in studying and finally going to Korea. Very interesting.. How I wish I got even the smallest part of The Matrix world wherein one language can be downloaded easily to my brain :)
I quote:
"As a persona in a soap, in 24 hours you have done what a centenarian has done in his lifetime. There is character development, you know your role, your purpose. You'll be able to travel to a lot of places, to be romantically loved, to be hurt and recover as if recovery is the next fastest thing to light...Yeah, I'd like to live in a soap opera. I don't wanna get tired. I don't wanna get sick and be confined for a long time. I don't wanna wear diapers or face the threat of being put in Home for the Aged. Yet I want to enjoy life, even if it is for just a short time. And isn't it that happiness, even in real life, ephemeral? So why not just live it on film?"
The thought made perfect sense about having a routine life... Maybe I'll go back to this pag nagsawa na ako sa pagiging bum but now?! I'll take it literally.. Little things like this, I take literally.. Maybe its one of the smallest stepping stone, but who cares? It keeps leading me to the path :)
Another that I would like to quote as I also refer as little stepping stone is this:
"Upon hearing “Ultra Mania”, I made up my mind that I had to become a singer. I want to [meet and] say hello to the senior I respect, and also discuss music [with him] afterwards."
After two years, when everything is right, I'll say the same thing at the same question..but not as a singer and "ultra mania" (I don't even know what that was!).. but more like a model and an actress upon being sooo affected by 3 kdramas! hahaha
Oh motivation just keep on coming!!! I'll receive you with open arms
I quote:
"As a persona in a soap, in 24 hours you have done what a centenarian has done in his lifetime. There is character development, you know your role, your purpose. You'll be able to travel to a lot of places, to be romantically loved, to be hurt and recover as if recovery is the next fastest thing to light...Yeah, I'd like to live in a soap opera. I don't wanna get tired. I don't wanna get sick and be confined for a long time. I don't wanna wear diapers or face the threat of being put in Home for the Aged. Yet I want to enjoy life, even if it is for just a short time. And isn't it that happiness, even in real life, ephemeral? So why not just live it on film?"
The thought made perfect sense about having a routine life... Maybe I'll go back to this pag nagsawa na ako sa pagiging bum but now?! I'll take it literally.. Little things like this, I take literally.. Maybe its one of the smallest stepping stone, but who cares? It keeps leading me to the path :)
Another that I would like to quote as I also refer as little stepping stone is this:
"Upon hearing “Ultra Mania”, I made up my mind that I had to become a singer. I want to [meet and] say hello to the senior I respect, and also discuss music [with him] afterwards."
After two years, when everything is right, I'll say the same thing at the same question..but not as a singer and "ultra mania" (I don't even know what that was!).. but more like a model and an actress upon being sooo affected by 3 kdramas! hahaha
Oh motivation just keep on coming!!! I'll receive you with open arms
new dream phase01
I found myself searching lessons to learn the korean language. It such a relief everytime I watch arirang and I'm saying to myself: Pupunta din ako dyan!! Hintayin ninyo ako.
It's the new dream that I found. I must do it in two years! Instead of bumming, I'm learning the language now thanks to pimsleur! Thanks a lot, though its really formal, I think I'll get to learn the informal through other sources that I've bookmarked in my browser. Now, I'm in half of lesson 10.. 20 more :) at least I'm excited about something. :)
It's the new dream that I found. I must do it in two years! Instead of bumming, I'm learning the language now thanks to pimsleur! Thanks a lot, though its really formal, I think I'll get to learn the informal through other sources that I've bookmarked in my browser. Now, I'm in half of lesson 10.. 20 more :) at least I'm excited about something. :)
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