Solo Flight

I texted Mr. Sparkle, 'oi ingat ingat sa pagtag ha.. Baka maghello cleavage hello world ako haha'

... Yup nagcenter sa ganyang level ang stay ko sa Bora. I'm trying to upload all the pictures by tonight, eventually I will be successful. I don't want to think of the office. Good thing my brother's laptop has no Skype.



Solo flight talaga ako.. Literal. Me alone on the plane. I was the last who booked the ticket (well techinically, my brother booked it for me.. since I have no card) First time on Zest Air both on the propeller and airbus. Talagang before and after. Ang cute. I'm so proud! Mag isa ako umuwi from Bora. Siyempre ung papunta, alone din sa plane, pero hindi na sa land and sea transfer.. At 'yon.. 'yon ang juicy. Kailangan ng preparation para isulat.

Ang mga paulit ulit kong naiisip:
1. I should've brought a book (Catching Fire - di ko pa tapos) for waiting in the airport lounge.
2. Pen and Journal or notebook. I like to write. I still prefer manual handwriting for journal than blogging (o wala lang akong laptop). I did bring a journal and notebook and planner. Gaga lang, walang ballpen!
3. Underwater Camera case is soooo important!!! Bat ba wala ako nito?!! Puro sand na tuloy ung cam ko.. I now have to visit a Canon service center to make sure that a spot in the lense can be removed. I want it opened and clean, regardless of the cost. Wala din tuloy akong pictures with the fishes.
4. Waterproof sling bag for the money, celfon, cam, and all other stuffs. Para di ako nakikilagay sa iba't ibang bag..
5. If you bring your sarong, use it!!. Bring it when you're island hopping!! ef!
6. Always bring water.
7. Sunblock.. buti meron si kuya!
8. iPod for land/sea transfers.. para walang kumausap sayong nonsense! haha

Oct 22 letter to Mr. soya

After months of bumming and tirelessly applying for jobs, its a wonder how in just this week I keep on asking myself the same and unbelievably ridiculous and annoying question: 'Mr. Soya where are you?'

Its not about my disastrous embarrassment at Game Ka Na Ba nor my shameful job offer at Smart that I'm asking for him. It's not even the job offer of my wildest expectations too..

Its just like destiny or fate is so busy picking at me. Beyond my wildest and utterly unexplainable imagination did I find my wildest and utterly unexplainable imagination did I find myself looking at the same guy who introduced me to the realization that some metaphors do personalize as I was completely jaw-droppingly awed to the sparkle in his eyes a couple of years back. Last weekend, I was surprised to see him again, but it was nothing to the feelings that rushed over me. Maybe I was awed again, or maybe I just missed him (as if we do bond) I don't know the right answer and explanation. I do know I was happy, the kind that again last for days, although I wish it hasn't. I know it was wrong, definitely wrong.

I suppose I'm convinced that fare really has its ways to play on emotional that fate really has its always to play on emotional aspects of humans. At the very instat I saw him online it happened. Happiness in multi-folds. This has definitely gone wrong.

I have to give this up. I thought I already did together with a teardrop last moonlight. Bust as much as I resist and fight my heart with my brain, the latter lost. And I have to believe that tonight was a stupid mistake. Very stupid!

Mr. Soya I really wish you were here. I most certainly know that one strike of laughter is all it takes to stop all this rediculous nonsense.

--Ruby