After an 80th bday/reunion..

Now, I'm alone, waiting for my Tita in her room . A party just ended.. or may be the extension did. This was one of a kind 80th birthday.. So many relatives, all at once...

Now that I'm blogging about it, it kinda made me realize how blessed I was to be part of this so awesome BIG family..

With this, I thought on how I treat opportunities... What do I normally do, when an opportunity strikes... Normally, with my passive attitude, I just go with the flow. Add my apathetic nature as well... Ok lang na oo, ok lang na hindi.. walang pakeeelamanan.. I live my world, You live yours!!.. haaay now I don't know if that's bad...

First time to drink with my second cousin who's now working as a ASE in Accenture.. That's cool, he's the one who talked to me first. That can be treated as a milestone!

We drink till the night end..His girlfriend even joined as later. She's cool. I might even text her when we I go to Central Buendia.. Haha FC tlga! I hope we'll all be close.. I really do! It would be cool, you know.

.. I did think about him.. bakit ganon.. Sabi na kasing I'll always end as the loser e.. haay.. tigas tlga ng ulo! I didnt texted him though.. Imagine the temptation?! 'chos!! just stay away from my phone...

Reality Bites: Disappointed

Hay nako. I don't know how to start but my weeks have been revolving on some petty teases that comes to life.

I don't know how to call my lablife status now. Sometimes I feel like I'm in my own koreanovela: new environment, boys, wingmen and the part where you just couldn't justify what happened and call it 'Destiny'...

But now, I'll try to live a life away from the colors. Self-imposed colors. I began to realize that the colors were not really there in the first place.. My 'colorers' (batchmates) were just so good connecting the dots and catching my sensitive imagination that I make believe there's some actuality in it.

Should I just call it 'Reality Bites!'?

I'm not hurt, not even sure if confused.. but some part of me is very disappointed. Am I disappointed with myself because I'm the one whose making the MOVE? Or maybe, given the fact that I do make the move, nothing happened??

Wasted effort??

I can't wait to see them online, but my mind tries desperately to beat my other intuition to message them. What to do?? Haaay... For now, I 'll rest with the disappointments..