Parang gusto ko nalang manood ng kseries. Para magkaroon ng spice kahit konti ung buhay ko.. Leave the world and enter another. Entertaining. Fun. Moving...
haaay...
*is this the effect of putting kseries ost in my ipod??? ef!
boo me!
From one of the memorable blogs that pinch my memory:
As a persona in a soap, in 24 hours you have done what a centenarian has done in his lifetime. There is character development, you know your role, your purpose. You'll be able to travel to a lot of places, to be romantically loved, to be hurt and recover as if recovery is the next fastest thing to light...Yeah, I'd like to live in a soap opera. I don't wanna get tired. I don't wanna get sick and be confined for a long time. I don't wanna wear diapers or face the threat of being put in Home for the Aged. Yet I want to enjoy life, even if it is for just a short time. And isn't it that happiness, even in real life, ephemeral? So why not just live it on film?
Showing posts with label kdrama. Show all posts
Showing posts with label kdrama. Show all posts
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Monday, August 24, 2009
Now what?!
It's 5PM and I already had nothing in line to do today. Finished Dal Ja's as expected. Playlist created - wish I could transfer this to my phone. I've been tweeting in the past weeks, not really for myself or to anyone to know what i'm up to (as if there's something interesting now) but rather to read tweets from people.. more like celebs. I like Ruffa G's tweets, followed her the first time she announced that she registered. She's the first Pinoy celebrity, and well she's not getting anything from it ($$$), something free, not like the text subscriptions sh*t. Anyway, just to make it clear, I'm NOT her fan! My bestfriend, though adores her soooo much!
Found another Japcompany. Hmmm, they need 15 programmer trainees. It's ok if I would program, at least I'm closer to my ultimate dreeeeeeeeeeam. haha Top1 top2. yeah.. yun na lng tawag ko!
Waaah I can't find anything to do!! gosh. Maybe I'll read hp7. soooo bum!grr.. There's not enough ingredients in the house to experiment with.. or maybe I'll watch travel and living na lang ulit. Check out some recipes and pretend to care on other people's lives. I don't want to deal with other things that might lead to SP mode like online shopping and stuff.. bat naman kasi! haha mahirap na ume-SP, hirap ng mahirap! yan naiisip ko tuloy ung vest!!! biaaaaatch
Found another Japcompany. Hmmm, they need 15 programmer trainees. It's ok if I would program, at least I'm closer to my ultimate dreeeeeeeeeeam. haha Top1 top2. yeah.. yun na lng tawag ko!
Waaah I can't find anything to do!! gosh. Maybe I'll read hp7. soooo bum!grr.. There's not enough ingredients in the house to experiment with.. or maybe I'll watch travel and living na lang ulit. Check out some recipes and pretend to care on other people's lives. I don't want to deal with other things that might lead to SP mode like online shopping and stuff.. bat naman kasi! haha mahirap na ume-SP, hirap ng mahirap! yan naiisip ko tuloy ung vest!!! biaaaaatch
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Going back to the 'real' world
Spent hours here on a Saturday. That's a change. Cause if I don't brave to came here, I would've lost my patience at home - doing the same things, hating the same people. Blaming myself.
I've watched two eps of Dal Ja's Spring. I just realized how different this series from others. Everything is mature. Not the usual dramas. Of course, there is the opposing families, but here it is shown with a lighter perspective. Things were taken care of maturely, no crying, no self-pitying.. It managed to be funny from start up until the end (or so I think after 19 eps) unlike others. Very simple, career-oriented, rich and fresh. Different but brilliant and light. Wow! Is this a review or something?
I'll go back at home. On a positive light, I'll watch cable shows as what was stated in my prev blog. However, I do hope I won't run out of patience and I won't remember the trip on Sept1. I don't want to go. The guilt and the self-pity. C'mon... As if I won't be pitying when I'm left alone in the house.. Well I believe it will be less though. Maybe I just can't take the future 'money issues' that my brother will rattle indirectly on me. I already had enough bumming around...
Job job job.. come to me so that I could pay my debts rightaway to Mr. Soya. My aussie-to-be friend is such a good person, no wonder he is showered with blessings. :p
Maybe later, I could play some dress ups haha.. gosh how I want a vest and a short jacket.
I've watched two eps of Dal Ja's Spring. I just realized how different this series from others. Everything is mature. Not the usual dramas. Of course, there is the opposing families, but here it is shown with a lighter perspective. Things were taken care of maturely, no crying, no self-pitying.. It managed to be funny from start up until the end (or so I think after 19 eps) unlike others. Very simple, career-oriented, rich and fresh. Different but brilliant and light. Wow! Is this a review or something?
I'll go back at home. On a positive light, I'll watch cable shows as what was stated in my prev blog. However, I do hope I won't run out of patience and I won't remember the trip on Sept1. I don't want to go. The guilt and the self-pity. C'mon... As if I won't be pitying when I'm left alone in the house.. Well I believe it will be less though. Maybe I just can't take the future 'money issues' that my brother will rattle indirectly on me. I already had enough bumming around...
Job job job.. come to me so that I could pay my debts rightaway to Mr. Soya. My aussie-to-be friend is such a good person, no wonder he is showered with blessings. :p
Maybe later, I could play some dress ups haha.. gosh how I want a vest and a short jacket.
Friday, August 21, 2009
average bumming
One of the questions in the to-ask-in-an-interview article was: So what will be my average day look like?.. This is my 'is-and-hopefully-will-become-WAS' average day bumming as I struggle for the last bits of optimism despite my formulated 'anchor theory'.
Home:
Aside from the largest contributing factor of my own diagnosis of 'self-pity' which is the repetitive and unending chores, I try to enjoy myself in front of the cube. Although I really love cooking and trying/experimenting on a lot of stuffs.
No. 1 on the list is Discovery Travel and Living. Wishing I have the job of Bob Blumer in Glutton for Punishment (How I loved the Medoc Marathon and Tour de France in, well, France). I also stay tuned whenever foodies hit the shows. So much love to Curtis Stone and Jamie Oliver. Sometimes, I even list their recipes. Aside from this channel, I stayed rigidly glued watching ET, the Insider and the occasional good movies. Laugh is guaranteed when I watch Ellen and Conan O' Brien. 2nd Ave and ETC keeps my life sort of updated
Net:
For the net, which is my haven and my life. Facebook, Twitter, and now watching Dal Ja's Spring.. I would say this is good. This has far been the longest gap time I spend in watching a Kseries. I love it though! Very mature yet the romCom is very fresh.
I also keep on salivating in online shopping looking for fashion ins and outs and searching for trendier ways (or at least acceptable in my part) to wear my other clothings. Sometimes, I search for regimens for skin, that would be the only good coming out of my bumming - controlling the environment for my skin. constantly dropping by at WH site and relive the dream to stay fit.. Take note.. dream!
*Sigh sigh.. loser life?! I miss the busy me.
Home:
Aside from the largest contributing factor of my own diagnosis of 'self-pity' which is the repetitive and unending chores, I try to enjoy myself in front of the cube. Although I really love cooking and trying/experimenting on a lot of stuffs.
No. 1 on the list is Discovery Travel and Living. Wishing I have the job of Bob Blumer in Glutton for Punishment (How I loved the Medoc Marathon and Tour de France in, well, France). I also stay tuned whenever foodies hit the shows. So much love to Curtis Stone and Jamie Oliver. Sometimes, I even list their recipes. Aside from this channel, I stayed rigidly glued watching ET, the Insider and the occasional good movies. Laugh is guaranteed when I watch Ellen and Conan O' Brien. 2nd Ave and ETC keeps my life sort of updated
Net:
For the net, which is my haven and my life. Facebook, Twitter, and now watching Dal Ja's Spring.. I would say this is good. This has far been the longest gap time I spend in watching a Kseries. I love it though! Very mature yet the romCom is very fresh.
I also keep on salivating in online shopping looking for fashion ins and outs and searching for trendier ways (or at least acceptable in my part) to wear my other clothings. Sometimes, I search for regimens for skin, that would be the only good coming out of my bumming - controlling the environment for my skin. constantly dropping by at WH site and relive the dream to stay fit.. Take note.. dream!
*Sigh sigh.. loser life?! I miss the busy me.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Me, I'll take it literally.
I just found an interesting blog.. He further excites my interest in studying and finally going to Korea. Very interesting.. How I wish I got even the smallest part of The Matrix world wherein one language can be downloaded easily to my brain :)
I quote:
"As a persona in a soap, in 24 hours you have done what a centenarian has done in his lifetime. There is character development, you know your role, your purpose. You'll be able to travel to a lot of places, to be romantically loved, to be hurt and recover as if recovery is the next fastest thing to light...Yeah, I'd like to live in a soap opera. I don't wanna get tired. I don't wanna get sick and be confined for a long time. I don't wanna wear diapers or face the threat of being put in Home for the Aged. Yet I want to enjoy life, even if it is for just a short time. And isn't it that happiness, even in real life, ephemeral? So why not just live it on film?"
The thought made perfect sense about having a routine life... Maybe I'll go back to this pag nagsawa na ako sa pagiging bum but now?! I'll take it literally.. Little things like this, I take literally.. Maybe its one of the smallest stepping stone, but who cares? It keeps leading me to the path :)
Another that I would like to quote as I also refer as little stepping stone is this:
"Upon hearing “Ultra Mania”, I made up my mind that I had to become a singer. I want to [meet and] say hello to the senior I respect, and also discuss music [with him] afterwards."
After two years, when everything is right, I'll say the same thing at the same question..but not as a singer and "ultra mania" (I don't even know what that was!).. but more like a model and an actress upon being sooo affected by 3 kdramas! hahaha
Oh motivation just keep on coming!!! I'll receive you with open arms
I quote:
"As a persona in a soap, in 24 hours you have done what a centenarian has done in his lifetime. There is character development, you know your role, your purpose. You'll be able to travel to a lot of places, to be romantically loved, to be hurt and recover as if recovery is the next fastest thing to light...Yeah, I'd like to live in a soap opera. I don't wanna get tired. I don't wanna get sick and be confined for a long time. I don't wanna wear diapers or face the threat of being put in Home for the Aged. Yet I want to enjoy life, even if it is for just a short time. And isn't it that happiness, even in real life, ephemeral? So why not just live it on film?"
The thought made perfect sense about having a routine life... Maybe I'll go back to this pag nagsawa na ako sa pagiging bum but now?! I'll take it literally.. Little things like this, I take literally.. Maybe its one of the smallest stepping stone, but who cares? It keeps leading me to the path :)
Another that I would like to quote as I also refer as little stepping stone is this:
"Upon hearing “Ultra Mania”, I made up my mind that I had to become a singer. I want to [meet and] say hello to the senior I respect, and also discuss music [with him] afterwards."
After two years, when everything is right, I'll say the same thing at the same question..but not as a singer and "ultra mania" (I don't even know what that was!).. but more like a model and an actress upon being sooo affected by 3 kdramas! hahaha
Oh motivation just keep on coming!!! I'll receive you with open arms
Saturday, May 16, 2009
my other half
This day has been terrible for me. I realized that I hate being bum... yet at some point I think God wants me to.
I cried a lot today... I found my other half. The half that wants a selected few true friends than what I have now. The half that's weak. The scared one. The lonely one...
All the problems that I ignored, everything that stabs me for the past year.. Even though I don't remember why, how and when those occured... Ngayon ko pa lang naramdaman lahat ng pain... Sabi ko dati, masama tong ginagawa ko..Darating ang panahon na babalik sakin lahat ng mga pinilit kong kalimutan, mga sakit at sama ng loob na hindi ko pinansin...
Eto na nga..dumating na! At ang sakit sakit.. napakahirap... Pag ikaw na lang mag-isa, naiiyak ka na lang.. You don't need a reason to cry and be lonely.. Parang lahat sila nagteam up at sabay sabay naghihintay ng "right timing".. When the mind and the situation is ready.. They're like a timebomb that's ready to explode with the right triggering element... For now, as always.. it is a kdrama..
Lord, I don't know what to do. It's me against myself! :( I'm so scared.. and yet until the end of the day, I'm crying like hell..
This other half believes in fairy tale but with all her mistakes and shorcomings, the people that she hurt intentionally and unintentionally, makes her dreams impossible to reach. Lord, be with me.. I understand.. Thy will be done. But give me this chance to let it all out.. Too many reasons, but I cannot figure which.. they're all coming back to me now...
Seems like the other half's fairy tale has no happy ending...
I realized now that there's a total opposite of what people knew about me.. This is the real me. Minsan lang lumabas pero totoo.. sira ulo at pathetic.
Crazy.. I've gone so crazy today.. The battle with my self is so painful... I've gone mental.. Di na ako kumakain.. puro liquid na lang.. Ganto pala ako pagdepressed, nawawalan ng gana. When food was I thought I loved the most. Nababaliw na ako. ang hirap hirap.. Lord, help me.. ang dami ko ng naiyak... Natatakot ako para sa sarili ko.. Nababaliw na ata ako... ang bigat bigat Lord.. I'm sorry..
Let me be.. I have to find myself pa siguro.. Salamat din at nangyayari pa rin ito sa akin mas nakikilala ko ang sarili ko. nasasaktan..sinasaksak.. mas nagiging tao..
Ako na iyakin...
Ako na takot..
Ako na mahina..
:( Di ko man lang nakuhang tumawa. Ang lungkot lungkot.. Eto na ba ang depression? eto na ba ang pinaka mahinang state ko? Siguro nga! Malamang.. I feel so helpless.. God.. How long will I be like this, I don't know. But something in me likes it.. I'm letting myself free-ier sa tuwing hinahawakan ko ung ulo ko at hindi ko alam kung anung gagawin ko dito.. sa tuwing napapahinga ako ng malalim at biglang tutulo ang luha... I missed myself.. I always give it to others.. I'm always giving out my positive side.. Now, I'm on my negative.. The negative half.. The negative half who can't reason, just cry.. Burst of tears falling nonstop.
Sa memorial kanina.. para akong mababaliw.. para akong sasabog. at ngayon.. sumasabog pa ulit. grabe namang kalungkutan to..
Geum Jan Di, Gu Jun Pyo.. Kasalanan niyo ba ito? o tinulungan ninyo lang ako? ..Salamat.. hindi pa ako makakabangon ngayon.. tsaka na ako babalik sa positive half kapag may nangangailangan na lang ulit.. Ngayon, ako muna... ako na magisa. ako na naghihintay ng fairy tale story. ako na naniniwala sa happy ending. ako na malungkot. ako na may hinahanap.. ako na iyakin...
Look at me at my negative.
I cried a lot today... I found my other half. The half that wants a selected few true friends than what I have now. The half that's weak. The scared one. The lonely one...
All the problems that I ignored, everything that stabs me for the past year.. Even though I don't remember why, how and when those occured... Ngayon ko pa lang naramdaman lahat ng pain... Sabi ko dati, masama tong ginagawa ko..Darating ang panahon na babalik sakin lahat ng mga pinilit kong kalimutan, mga sakit at sama ng loob na hindi ko pinansin...
Eto na nga..dumating na! At ang sakit sakit.. napakahirap... Pag ikaw na lang mag-isa, naiiyak ka na lang.. You don't need a reason to cry and be lonely.. Parang lahat sila nagteam up at sabay sabay naghihintay ng "right timing".. When the mind and the situation is ready.. They're like a timebomb that's ready to explode with the right triggering element... For now, as always.. it is a kdrama..
Lord, I don't know what to do. It's me against myself! :( I'm so scared.. and yet until the end of the day, I'm crying like hell..
This other half believes in fairy tale but with all her mistakes and shorcomings, the people that she hurt intentionally and unintentionally, makes her dreams impossible to reach. Lord, be with me.. I understand.. Thy will be done. But give me this chance to let it all out.. Too many reasons, but I cannot figure which.. they're all coming back to me now...
Seems like the other half's fairy tale has no happy ending...
I realized now that there's a total opposite of what people knew about me.. This is the real me. Minsan lang lumabas pero totoo.. sira ulo at pathetic.
Crazy.. I've gone so crazy today.. The battle with my self is so painful... I've gone mental.. Di na ako kumakain.. puro liquid na lang.. Ganto pala ako pagdepressed, nawawalan ng gana. When food was I thought I loved the most. Nababaliw na ako. ang hirap hirap.. Lord, help me.. ang dami ko ng naiyak... Natatakot ako para sa sarili ko.. Nababaliw na ata ako... ang bigat bigat Lord.. I'm sorry..
Let me be.. I have to find myself pa siguro.. Salamat din at nangyayari pa rin ito sa akin mas nakikilala ko ang sarili ko. nasasaktan..sinasaksak.. mas nagiging tao..
Ako na iyakin...
Ako na takot..
Ako na mahina..
:( Di ko man lang nakuhang tumawa. Ang lungkot lungkot.. Eto na ba ang depression? eto na ba ang pinaka mahinang state ko? Siguro nga! Malamang.. I feel so helpless.. God.. How long will I be like this, I don't know. But something in me likes it.. I'm letting myself free-ier sa tuwing hinahawakan ko ung ulo ko at hindi ko alam kung anung gagawin ko dito.. sa tuwing napapahinga ako ng malalim at biglang tutulo ang luha... I missed myself.. I always give it to others.. I'm always giving out my positive side.. Now, I'm on my negative.. The negative half.. The negative half who can't reason, just cry.. Burst of tears falling nonstop.
Sa memorial kanina.. para akong mababaliw.. para akong sasabog. at ngayon.. sumasabog pa ulit. grabe namang kalungkutan to..
Geum Jan Di, Gu Jun Pyo.. Kasalanan niyo ba ito? o tinulungan ninyo lang ako? ..Salamat.. hindi pa ako makakabangon ngayon.. tsaka na ako babalik sa positive half kapag may nangangailangan na lang ulit.. Ngayon, ako muna... ako na magisa. ako na naghihintay ng fairy tale story. ako na naniniwala sa happy ending. ako na malungkot. ako na may hinahanap.. ako na iyakin...
Look at me at my negative.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
star and moon
The star that wouldn't let go of the moon...
I don't know why I kept on watching this kdrama.. It only makes me more alone... more lonely..
Haaaay... ang bigaaaaat :(
I don't know why I kept on watching this kdrama.. It only makes me more alone... more lonely..
Haaaay... ang bigaaaaat :(
Effects of kdrama
I'm sooo depressed... partly sa interview (which is a whole new embarassing story) but I think its more of watching Boys over flowers... Why do I have to reflect on my own life whenever I watch kdramas.. I kinda feel so pathetic right now. I want to meet the man of my dreams but..there's just so many buts..
I have done alot of wrong decisions or mistakes in this feild that I feel I don't deserve someone's pure love anymore.. I have given a lot already. All were huge mistakes. But I do learn that's why I'm afraid. I don't want to get hurt anymore. I do realize there's one thing I haven't given anyone... something pure and full...my love... Parang I have so much love to give. But afraid to give it to the wrong person..
Gu Jun Pyo.. in this kdrama.. It is you who turn my world upside down..Fun and kilig at first, but depressing in the end..
mannerisms, character, being driven... believing in fairy tale... so
...pathetic...
haay.. Talagang dapat affected ako lagi?!! :(
I have done alot of wrong decisions or mistakes in this feild that I feel I don't deserve someone's pure love anymore.. I have given a lot already. All were huge mistakes. But I do learn that's why I'm afraid. I don't want to get hurt anymore. I do realize there's one thing I haven't given anyone... something pure and full...my love... Parang I have so much love to give. But afraid to give it to the wrong person..
Gu Jun Pyo.. in this kdrama.. It is you who turn my world upside down..Fun and kilig at first, but depressing in the end..
mannerisms, character, being driven... believing in fairy tale... so
...pathetic...
haay.. Talagang dapat affected ako lagi?!! :(
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