Note to self: Don't be a victim of your own food cravings!
I bought a P190 movie ticket for Miss you like crazy in GB3 but I spend so much..no Too much on food.. and to think, I'm not even hungry at all. Why is extra buttered popcorn so hard to resist(P95 + P15)? plus the large fries (P43) plus the Bigchill shake (P75)? Mas mahal pa ung pagkain ko sa movie!
Napakagastos! I hate it when I eat a lot. Am I depressed??
I watched with an officemate and although it was a first time experience for us and the company was ok, I can't help but miss Mr. Soya. With him, it was just so much fun!! No dull moment. It was always fun. From the sharing of our daily experiences, the unforgettable beginnings of our friendship to the nonstop super super laftrip!
Gosh I missed him so much I texted him rightaway even though I know he's asleep in Aussie land.
Now I'm talking to my friend.. And I'm about 100% sure my thoughts are pure nonsense. But still he's trying to understand the situation.. missed him too.
Showing posts with label Mr. Soya. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mr. Soya. Show all posts
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
in the room with her
9:30 AM 1/22/2010
On a lighter note, I now feel comfortable around her (Jan Di as Mr. Soya named her).. I dare not say that I am no longer afraid of her as that is inevitable, but yeah, I think the perfect word is comfortable..
She was in a good mood. She laughed. I delivered the correct answers.. All in all.. I think we're cool..
But please don't pick me!
On a lighter note, I now feel comfortable around her (Jan Di as Mr. Soya named her).. I dare not say that I am no longer afraid of her as that is inevitable, but yeah, I think the perfect word is comfortable..
She was in a good mood. She laughed. I delivered the correct answers.. All in all.. I think we're cool..
But please don't pick me!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Day 1
I'm now here in the office waiting for my lunch break to end. My eyes is tired already calling the pillows and the sound sleep. My Day 1 yesterday was so boring and so sleepy due to numerous orientation from different departments such as HR, Facilities and ours, CS focusing on the training and the company policies. It's a good thing that Philippines is the holiday capital so as to feed my Shikamaruness.
During the 'tell me about yourself' stuff, I can't think of anything anymore because of my lack of sleep and most probably because of Naruto Shippuuden was playing all over my mind. I said useless stuffs. Shikamaru Shikamaru Shikamaru.. puro ganto ung nasa utak ko,that's why pati ako nahahawa na ng katamaran ni Shikamaru, as if I'm not by myself. Haaay
I wore mascara yesterday which was a good thing cause I cried hearing lonely/senti songs (in the bus and jeep). I found out that Mr. Soya was on night shift on the only month that we will be working on the same area. That, somehow, depresses me.. and then flashbacks.. realizations.. haaay There's only one word on my mind... 'bakit??' My mind tells me that I should be happy.. But maybe this was the part where they say heart and mind actually do disagree..
I can't even sleep on my bed so as not to feel the solitude.
During the 'tell me about yourself' stuff, I can't think of anything anymore because of my lack of sleep and most probably because of Naruto Shippuuden was playing all over my mind. I said useless stuffs. Shikamaru Shikamaru Shikamaru.. puro ganto ung nasa utak ko,that's why pati ako nahahawa na ng katamaran ni Shikamaru, as if I'm not by myself. Haaay
I wore mascara yesterday which was a good thing cause I cried hearing lonely/senti songs (in the bus and jeep). I found out that Mr. Soya was on night shift on the only month that we will be working on the same area. That, somehow, depresses me.. and then flashbacks.. realizations.. haaay There's only one word on my mind... 'bakit??' My mind tells me that I should be happy.. But maybe this was the part where they say heart and mind actually do disagree..
I can't even sleep on my bed so as not to feel the solitude.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Oct 22 letter to Mr. soya
After months of bumming and tirelessly applying for jobs, its a wonder how in just this week I keep on asking myself the same and unbelievably ridiculous and annoying question: 'Mr. Soya where are you?'
Its not about my disastrous embarrassment at Game Ka Na Ba nor my shameful job offer at Smart that I'm asking for him. It's not even the job offer of my wildest expectations too..
Its just like destiny or fate is so busy picking at me. Beyond my wildest and utterly unexplainable imagination did I find my wildest and utterly unexplainable imagination did I find myself looking at the same guy who introduced me to the realization that some metaphors do personalize as I was completely jaw-droppingly awed to the sparkle in his eyes a couple of years back. Last weekend, I was surprised to see him again, but it was nothing to the feelings that rushed over me. Maybe I was awed again, or maybe I just missed him (as if we do bond) I don't know the right answer and explanation. I do know I was happy, the kind that again last for days, although I wish it hasn't. I know it was wrong, definitely wrong.
I suppose I'm convinced that fare really has its ways to play on emotional that fate really has its always to play on emotional aspects of humans. At the very instat I saw him online it happened. Happiness in multi-folds. This has definitely gone wrong.
I have to give this up. I thought I already did together with a teardrop last moonlight. Bust as much as I resist and fight my heart with my brain, the latter lost. And I have to believe that tonight was a stupid mistake. Very stupid!
Mr. Soya I really wish you were here. I most certainly know that one strike of laughter is all it takes to stop all this rediculous nonsense.
--Ruby
Its not about my disastrous embarrassment at Game Ka Na Ba nor my shameful job offer at Smart that I'm asking for him. It's not even the job offer of my wildest expectations too..
Its just like destiny or fate is so busy picking at me. Beyond my wildest and utterly unexplainable imagination did I find my wildest and utterly unexplainable imagination did I find myself looking at the same guy who introduced me to the realization that some metaphors do personalize as I was completely jaw-droppingly awed to the sparkle in his eyes a couple of years back. Last weekend, I was surprised to see him again, but it was nothing to the feelings that rushed over me. Maybe I was awed again, or maybe I just missed him (as if we do bond) I don't know the right answer and explanation. I do know I was happy, the kind that again last for days, although I wish it hasn't. I know it was wrong, definitely wrong.
I suppose I'm convinced that fare really has its ways to play on emotional that fate really has its always to play on emotional aspects of humans. At the very instat I saw him online it happened. Happiness in multi-folds. This has definitely gone wrong.
I have to give this up. I thought I already did together with a teardrop last moonlight. Bust as much as I resist and fight my heart with my brain, the latter lost. And I have to believe that tonight was a stupid mistake. Very stupid!
Mr. Soya I really wish you were here. I most certainly know that one strike of laughter is all it takes to stop all this rediculous nonsense.
--Ruby
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Going back to the 'real' world
Spent hours here on a Saturday. That's a change. Cause if I don't brave to came here, I would've lost my patience at home - doing the same things, hating the same people. Blaming myself.
I've watched two eps of Dal Ja's Spring. I just realized how different this series from others. Everything is mature. Not the usual dramas. Of course, there is the opposing families, but here it is shown with a lighter perspective. Things were taken care of maturely, no crying, no self-pitying.. It managed to be funny from start up until the end (or so I think after 19 eps) unlike others. Very simple, career-oriented, rich and fresh. Different but brilliant and light. Wow! Is this a review or something?
I'll go back at home. On a positive light, I'll watch cable shows as what was stated in my prev blog. However, I do hope I won't run out of patience and I won't remember the trip on Sept1. I don't want to go. The guilt and the self-pity. C'mon... As if I won't be pitying when I'm left alone in the house.. Well I believe it will be less though. Maybe I just can't take the future 'money issues' that my brother will rattle indirectly on me. I already had enough bumming around...
Job job job.. come to me so that I could pay my debts rightaway to Mr. Soya. My aussie-to-be friend is such a good person, no wonder he is showered with blessings. :p
Maybe later, I could play some dress ups haha.. gosh how I want a vest and a short jacket.
I've watched two eps of Dal Ja's Spring. I just realized how different this series from others. Everything is mature. Not the usual dramas. Of course, there is the opposing families, but here it is shown with a lighter perspective. Things were taken care of maturely, no crying, no self-pitying.. It managed to be funny from start up until the end (or so I think after 19 eps) unlike others. Very simple, career-oriented, rich and fresh. Different but brilliant and light. Wow! Is this a review or something?
I'll go back at home. On a positive light, I'll watch cable shows as what was stated in my prev blog. However, I do hope I won't run out of patience and I won't remember the trip on Sept1. I don't want to go. The guilt and the self-pity. C'mon... As if I won't be pitying when I'm left alone in the house.. Well I believe it will be less though. Maybe I just can't take the future 'money issues' that my brother will rattle indirectly on me. I already had enough bumming around...
Job job job.. come to me so that I could pay my debts rightaway to Mr. Soya. My aussie-to-be friend is such a good person, no wonder he is showered with blessings. :p
Maybe later, I could play some dress ups haha.. gosh how I want a vest and a short jacket.
Monday, June 15, 2009
in crossroad
In crossroads.
Still I have this big debt. Pussy, my supposed-to-be source of money experienced something unfortunate today that she can't give me the money.. Now I'm in trouble. My brother, with his bitter and angry sentiments about money has been bugging me. I should have asked for 6k instead of 2k. Now, I'm in trouble. I asked another close friend but then he has to asked if his parents will allow him to lend me, and it sucks.. I mean, I don't want to cause trouble to anybody specially ofcourse to him..I'm the one who needs money and if he's gonna be in trouble or at least get himself caught in between then I guess not worth it.. Haaay
Got a good interview although its totally wrong for me to react to the whole lecture with a selfish word such as "exhausting!".. Gosh I was soooo damn wrong about that. I hope 'she' didn't note that (which is totally impossible). Another thing when she asked me to described myself in one word, I should've said what my preliminary interviewer told us: "Ambitious".. Instead I answered driven.. Hay I forgot about that dahil linakad ko ang buong ayala!!!!
Now I'm in crossroads between waiting for my since-college dream company and this emerging nothing-at-all-to-do-with-my-course-but-has-spectacular-benefits-including-travel-and-management company.. Aaaargh what should I do? The second is a dream job for anyone in the country. The benefits and career growth is very promising but sales and marketinG????? However my dream company has very little career growth, what I'll be doing is perfect for my course but the ambition of becoming a manager will remain in my dreams... I'm not as confident as my colleagues with regards to programming etc..
But then, in both companies, I'm subjected to intensive training...
Whatever training I will be enrolled in, I know, sure fire, I will excell...
Still at crossroads... advice please!
words to ponder:
a.Rest and relaxation; travel opportunities; management trainee; makati; benefits; PAYCHECK; partner; 800k; immediate hiring!
b.Computer; how things work; DREAM company; mr. soya; techy; queen of circle; fun fun; pressure; makati;
Words to curse:
a. sales and marketing!; promo girl?; rejection; degrading!!; eewness
b. programming hell; no career growth; stuck; geeky?; no fashion hallway
Still I have this big debt. Pussy, my supposed-to-be source of money experienced something unfortunate today that she can't give me the money.. Now I'm in trouble. My brother, with his bitter and angry sentiments about money has been bugging me. I should have asked for 6k instead of 2k. Now, I'm in trouble. I asked another close friend but then he has to asked if his parents will allow him to lend me, and it sucks.. I mean, I don't want to cause trouble to anybody specially ofcourse to him..I'm the one who needs money and if he's gonna be in trouble or at least get himself caught in between then I guess not worth it.. Haaay
Got a good interview although its totally wrong for me to react to the whole lecture with a selfish word such as "exhausting!".. Gosh I was soooo damn wrong about that. I hope 'she' didn't note that (which is totally impossible). Another thing when she asked me to described myself in one word, I should've said what my preliminary interviewer told us: "Ambitious".. Instead I answered driven.. Hay I forgot about that dahil linakad ko ang buong ayala!!!!
Now I'm in crossroads between waiting for my since-college dream company and this emerging nothing-at-all-to-do-with-my-course-but-has-spectacular-benefits-including-travel-and-management company.. Aaaargh what should I do? The second is a dream job for anyone in the country. The benefits and career growth is very promising but sales and marketinG????? However my dream company has very little career growth, what I'll be doing is perfect for my course but the ambition of becoming a manager will remain in my dreams... I'm not as confident as my colleagues with regards to programming etc..
But then, in both companies, I'm subjected to intensive training...
Whatever training I will be enrolled in, I know, sure fire, I will excell...
Still at crossroads... advice please!
words to ponder:
a.Rest and relaxation; travel opportunities; management trainee; makati; benefits; PAYCHECK; partner; 800k; immediate hiring!
b.Computer; how things work; DREAM company; mr. soya; techy; queen of circle; fun fun; pressure; makati;
Words to curse:
a. sales and marketing!; promo girl?; rejection; degrading!!; eewness
b. programming hell; no career growth; stuck; geeky?; no fashion hallway
Thursday, June 4, 2009
June 4
It's 2:25AM... my eyes hurts yet I'm still in front of the screen...
The weather has been cold lately due to frequent rains.. My 'feminine' mood is on strike and I realized the virtue of patience.. The 'Jerome HP' patience!
'Set Print Area'.. How does an employed printer, who's responsibility is to print documents doesn't know that!! I mean how competent is he?!! Gosh! That place is pathetic, and I guess nothing's different from the surrounding shops..
Lost about 40 pesos in tongits and another 15 pesos goes into my stomach! Cream-O choco is just so gooood! yummmy.
I need a therapy regarding my depression.. Is this a thought that I should even consider when almost all my so called friends answered 'depression' in my facebook quiz account?? Even Mr. Soya thinks so. Didn't they know that I'm a highly optimist person?! That I'm not a quitter BUT a fighter?! 'Lucky-charm' thinks so too.. She knows when I academically struggle but despite of all the visible drama and pressure I know and I certainly believe that I can do it.. That I'm a born fighter and will not stop at anything. Love you 'lucky charm!!' But Mr. Soya? Well.. In fairness to him, he does always hear me in distress.. What can I do, he's my output whenever I feel that life is unfair and full of sh*ts. Maybe I should start telling him the other side, the fighter powder girl! haha Share more of the good stuff..
I want to be like Alan Shore!.. The one who always wins in unconventional cases... :p Officially love Boston Legal!!
"Denny Crane, the sound of my name fascinates me.".. XD
Maybe after all this mess.. Once I finally get through it and hopefully be a good sheperd after all.. I want to forget 'this' ever happened between us.. The last memory that I would cherish the most would be the time we shop for tents and got lost a lot of times.. That's a happy one.. We got lost, we window-shopped through a lot of Chinese stores.. DVD hunts.. Ukay-ukay agawan.. lots of pictures even.. Radish Salad.. Dinner.. "Di parin ako makapaniwala nakabili tayo nito!!!!!!" haaaaay after all this.. maybe.. Well I hope.. You're my buddy system, my Friend.. not just an EVP... :) I still hope all is well... :)
The weather has been cold lately due to frequent rains.. My 'feminine' mood is on strike and I realized the virtue of patience.. The 'Jerome HP' patience!
'Set Print Area'.. How does an employed printer, who's responsibility is to print documents doesn't know that!! I mean how competent is he?!! Gosh! That place is pathetic, and I guess nothing's different from the surrounding shops..
Lost about 40 pesos in tongits and another 15 pesos goes into my stomach! Cream-O choco is just so gooood! yummmy.
I need a therapy regarding my depression.. Is this a thought that I should even consider when almost all my so called friends answered 'depression' in my facebook quiz account?? Even Mr. Soya thinks so. Didn't they know that I'm a highly optimist person?! That I'm not a quitter BUT a fighter?! 'Lucky-charm' thinks so too.. She knows when I academically struggle but despite of all the visible drama and pressure I know and I certainly believe that I can do it.. That I'm a born fighter and will not stop at anything. Love you 'lucky charm!!' But Mr. Soya? Well.. In fairness to him, he does always hear me in distress.. What can I do, he's my output whenever I feel that life is unfair and full of sh*ts. Maybe I should start telling him the other side, the fighter powder girl! haha Share more of the good stuff..
I want to be like Alan Shore!.. The one who always wins in unconventional cases... :p Officially love Boston Legal!!
"Denny Crane, the sound of my name fascinates me.".. XD
Maybe after all this mess.. Once I finally get through it and hopefully be a good sheperd after all.. I want to forget 'this' ever happened between us.. The last memory that I would cherish the most would be the time we shop for tents and got lost a lot of times.. That's a happy one.. We got lost, we window-shopped through a lot of Chinese stores.. DVD hunts.. Ukay-ukay agawan.. lots of pictures even.. Radish Salad.. Dinner.. "Di parin ako makapaniwala nakabili tayo nito!!!!!!" haaaaay after all this.. maybe.. Well I hope.. You're my buddy system, my Friend.. not just an EVP... :) I still hope all is well... :)
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